I feel miserable and unable to do the things i used to enjoy, and when i do its prerty much forced Im not sure what to do and I genuinely feel like wanting to choose a career path so unstable does not match my profile and with the increasing diassociation with life, I can not for the life of me convince that I still have a chance The only thing I know is that this persistent unsettlingly null feeling won't go away no matter how much I try to change my mind. Currently, life is not troublesome and I managed to step out of my comfort zone, yet none of these things feel real, even when I'm in the moment I'm not sure where I'm trying to go with this or what I'm trying to explain, but if you are interested in knowing what is happening, the answer is that my hands are slippery and the more i sweat, the lesser the grip I have on things. This is the best example I can give The world seems increasingly duller and faded, especially after AI advancement. I don't know how to put it into words, it just took sense out of everything and I'm not sure I want to live a life like this. Whatever enjoyement is gone, although I still try to gain it back. I feel like a phony, maybe that should be my role I can barely distinguish sounds and smells anymore. I am scared. Nothing tastes like anything, and sounds are just sounds. Even touch feels distant I've been planning on ways to end this, but for now I'll keep going. I want to be wrong, not comforted. If i need to pretend to be happy, then be it.

soon

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